I've been eating rice for this past few days its non a week since i got here. I've been eating a lot, finishing all of what has left in the fridge from lunch and breakfast, I'm starting to love coffee, and i just can's stop myself from eating. its raining here always, i haven't load my phone, and now I'm not afraid, if i just stay here in our house, maybe I'll just miss the essence of going to school. i don't know if i want to comeback, i lost my hope in pursuing my dreams, my goals of finishing my career. Anyways, I've been far from the technological world, my Plurk karma is decreasing and I think lj would be a nice to be a new home but then I'm hesitant about the name and the layout. i don't know if multiply alerts are flooding up the spam box of my gmail account,or Yesha is of sweetposh.com is having a new contest. I'm loving the book of Proverbs I'm so conscious of my nails even if its still short, I'm still cutting it, I'm so tardy, i wont even cook rice, and wash dishes
i love it, the silence of midnight where the singing crickets and the falling rain sing in chorus.

And it was that, all I could present was nothing, I have failed, I failed because I dared not to tell them to do that or to do this I never dared to asked them to help me but it was all messed up. I was now weak,

"All was a waste of time nothing is left"

I woke up as early as I could, but the bad feeling since yesterday seems to be added. I pity myself for I have not able to do things I have wanted.

Everyone blames me, and I don't care who they are. Everything seems to be uneasy for me, the yellow road that I want to mark with my footsteps are now blurry. I could feel, if this feeling continues. Goodbye.